A lot has been going on lately but there’s such a small time allocated to react to those. I guess it’s just best to runaway again. Oh, on the side note.. more and more politicians are turning to blogging world these days, perhaps it’s a good enough reason to fully quit now eh? When blogging meets politics.. never thought I’d live to see this happen.. Oh well..

Things seems rather weird around me lately. Small little things that used to make me smile will only make me feel uneasy, the things that used to make me laugh now makes me cry. Why is this happening? I don’t know. Things seems rather, unsolved lately. I feel lost and yet I try my best to keep my cool, smile when I’m around people, try to joke about something and laugh as hard as possible about things. I guess the feeling’s screwed because of the General Election. Well, at least a part of it would come from there. Dissatisfaction, irritation and a lot of negative feelings would come just by thinking about it.

Anyway, that’s about it today. Not really in the mood to write a long one too. I guess I just felt like letting it all out. Before I go, Happy Birthday Huz. I’m sorry I didn’t wish to you. It’s not that I forgot, it’s just that I’m not good at it. Better late than never I hope.. Cheers!

I’ve like a lot of things to write but then again, I’m not sure how to express those in words anymore. Maybe I should just stop doing what I do and continue hiding.. oh well..

It feels like forever since I last smiled or laughed freely. These days I smile and laugh to hide the fact that I’m never happy. I get something good in life and before I can even taste the full of it, it goes away. Nothing in life actually makes me feel good anymore. Why does it always work this way for me? Or it’s actually happening to everyone but they’re are as good as I am at covering it up?

I used to be able to hide the emotions and cover it up nicely. Everyone would think I’m the happiest man alive but these days it’s just not as easy anymore. I guess I’m just losing it and soon I’ll lose my mind and then I’ll just forget who I am or even who I was. Nothing’s been working out and honestly, I don’t give a shit anymore.

I guess there’s simply no point of being nice to people. I used to be nice and what did I ever get in return? I made their day, I made their smile and when I need all that, no one seems to be around. Their life is more important than I am. Perhaps, it’s just the way it is. Perhaps it was wrong for me to ignore my life once to make others feel better. You know, no one’s worth it anymore. I do feel that way these days. You don’t like it? I don’t give a damn anymore!

Nothing much has been going on and that was why the lack of update I think. Most importantly I think that leaves me some time for myself too. Time to sit down and think, remembering the old days, current days and what the future holds for me. Sometimes, I cant help but wonder what will happen in the near future.

A lecturer once asked me about 5 years ago “Where would you see yourself in the next 25 years?”
or something. The only thing I could think off then was “6 feet under”. Ironically, nothing has changed in that 5 years. I still think of the same thing. What? I’m not being optimistic in life? Maybe.. I’m just confused as everyone is I guess. So, let’s all be confused. Sit in the shower or where you think is a good place for you to have a deep thought on something. Let’s all try to decide on what is life really about and if you have an answer.. do let me know. I’m sure I would love to know.

Anyway, that’s going to be long enough for my crappy site design. Adios and have a great week ahead (I know everyone’s going to hate me, school starts back again and so is work but get over it :))